stress to the max

So im having a bit of a concern lately that is very hard to deal with and there is really no sollution!! yes i know this is going to be a complaining blog but sometimes people just need to have one of those!!

So one of my main problems that i am facing right now is health issues and no im not going to go into any serious detail but to give you an idea of what im going through is that I go to the doctors office about twice a week and thats on a good week, all of the nurses know me by name and know Anna by name, Anna knows the whole doctors office each room and bathrooms, all of the doctors have a nickname for me "the side effect" (yes it is even written in my records) and everytime I go in I get a hug from them saying how sorry they are i go through all of this!!
Oh and don't worry this is the first of my problems!!

Then I have a major stress problem going on in my life that pretty much effects me every day and there is no sollution to relieve the stress from this problem and Im probably going to be dealing with it the rest of my life and yes I have tried living with it but it has its ups and downs to were it doesn't bother me and then when it comes up again its just worse each time cause im really sick and tired of dealing with it!!

After that stress problem I have another one going on with Miss Anna to were certain things happen to her that hurt her emotionally and make her very sad and then I have to deal with a very sad hurt little girl and the things that hurt her she shouldn't have to be dealing with especially at 2!!

Then work (motherhood) is really kind of a crappy job its just like high school drama all over again and being married and a mom Im sick of drama after 10 min of it... so im probably leaving that job soon because i don't need more stress!!

Also sometimes I wish i could just act my own age (being 20)  instead of  trying to act 30 or older and trying to be very mature, it is very hard to try to be mature sometimes and yes i know i was the one to have a baby and get married very young but please also remember I am trying to be a great mother and do the right thing for my daughter instead of just pawn her off on my parents and never take care of her and always go party so sometimes i feel like I should have a day to act my own age!!

Also Riley and I both have a major stress problem that effects both of us being we are in different  situations then most we are only 20 and have a baby so those who are our age have nothing in common with us (so we have lost our friends) and then those who are in the same situation as us think we are to young and immature  or have there own friends and don't need any more.. so we feel like we don't have friends. And we feel like we don't have any family support for us and they only really come around for Anna which is understandable because it seems like none of them really got over the fact we are young have a baby and married but really its been 2 years get over it and realize WE ARE A FAMILY and there family as well!! so we feel like we just don't have any family support or caring and not really any friends, so it makes it hard to get our feelings out because all our problems are the same thing over and over again and they are problems that cant be fixed really and we are both tired of hearing each others same problems and we don't have any one else to talk to!!

Sorry about all the complaining and ramabling but it just needs to come out sometimes!!

Thanks all
and if you have any sollutions please let us know!!


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Independece Day Celebrations!!

This year was super fun and really packed!!
The Holiday started for us on Friday, our neighborhood does an annual firework BBQ show and it was so fun we ate hot dogs and yummy sides that everyone brought and Anna ran around like she always does then the fireworks started and it was a bit crazy cause they lined all 100's of the fireworks up down the road and lit them all off at once it was super loud and the smoke was so thick that you couldnt really even see the fireworks and Anna got really scared cause it was super loud!! But aferwards they had an out door movie (Gnomeo and Juliet) Anna's favorite movie so we went over and watched it and she loved it (yes it was at 10:00 at night).

Saturday I had to work but Riley took Anna to Seven Peaks for the Afternoon then when I got off we went to Carterville Park to watch the Stadium Fireworks, with the Chad, Shelley, Kenzie and Logan and there cousins, It was super fun and Anna loved watching the stadium fireworks everytime one went off she would clap and yell "YAY" and then ask for more!!

Sunday we had Grandma and Grandpa Creps over for a BBQ and fireworks and I got super sick Sunday night and just kind of laid around all day which stunk cause i really wanted to party. And Grandma and Grandpa stayed the night so we could all do the provo celebrations on Monday!!

So we woke up Monday more to go to the balloons but the balloons didn't fly because it was too windy so then they went and got a spot for the parade while i went home to take a nap cause i still didn't feel good and then the jets flying over our house woke me up and i felt much better so I went over to the parade just in time and Anna seemed to love the parade and loved watching everything especially the big blown up characters and all the county princesses. then after the parade we went back to the house to hang out before hitting the booths, there really wasn't anything exciting at the booths just flowers and indian stuff (that is why i love swiss days cause there stuff is so different)
That night we headed up to Heber to Grandma Susans house to have a BBQ and watch Midways firework... then we headed home and off to bed!!

Anna really loved the fireworks this year and getting to hang out with family and friends... I cant wait fore each year to come cause they will only get better the older she gets and know more about what its all about!!

work!!

So today was my first day of work at Motherhood! It was a fast day but very stressful... After not working for almost 2 years its hard to get back into the customer service swing, as well as learning all the product and everything else that is entailed to a job!! Now the hardest thing about this job is selling clothes to pregnant women now your all thinking.. ha ha yeah right they all need clothes well thats what I thought but a lot of pregnant women hate trying on clothes or hate having to do anything with clothes which is so sad because the clothes there are so CUTE!! I wish I would have shopped there more when I was pregnant!! Also one thing the job entails is to get to know the customers like really get to know the customers.. and let me tell you alot of people just don't even want to talk to you and when you have a boss hovering over your shoulder and the customer doesn't really want to talk you its very hard to do your job right!!

But one the of the hardest things was coming home to Miss Anna and having her very mad at me!! She wouldn't let me hold her or do anything with her!! It was very sad, but I hope it gets better!!


Conversation with Anna
Me: Anna are you mad at me?
Anna: Yes
Me: Why?
Anna: Cause
(then she walks away)

oh pooper!!

When I woke up this morning I headed into Anna's room to get her up so I sat down on the floor with a diaper in hand ready to change her butt and she crawled out of bed and then realized she forgot her Minnie so as she turned around I realized she wasn't wearing a diaper...uh oh as I noticed more she has pooped!! and there was poop all over her feet so me thinking oh great! I sent her into the bathroom to have a bath while i tried to find the diaper she took off all by herself!! While trying to find the diaper I had found that she had smeered her poop all over her bed sheets as well as the wall, her crib and there were chunks of poop on the floor!! So as I began to gather everything for the wash I suddenly remember I sent her to the bathroom with no diaper on so I rushed right in to find her peeing all over the floor!!

So moral of the story don't put Anna to bed in a night gown.. make sure she had pants she cant get off!!

June is flying!!

Well my week to come..
I work tomorrow at Shelleys Shop (sweetheart Bridal) so if you need a wedding dress come visit me tomorrow
Saturday we have a baby contest for Anna for the Freedom Festival also on Saturday my Dad turns 70
Sunday Fathers Day... YAY... we got Riley a bonsi tree (which he has been wanting for years) also a pair of shoes.. but don't tell him till Sunday! :D
Monday... Doctors appointment :(
Tuesday work for Shelley and Bunco
Then next Friday is our 2nd Anniversary (Riley is suppose to plan it so hopefully he will plan something romantic cause i have been getting on him about not being romantic)
Saturday is a baby shower for a friend of mine (Charolette) and then off to Heber for a wedding of two friends of mine (Kaylie and Joe)..

So this is probably not a busy week for most people but for me it is!! :D

Also Im still waiting to hear about the Motherhood job the lady got home from vacation today so im hoping i will get a call by the weekend.. so its a little stressful to wait to hear about a job you have been waiting for, for over a week!!

I will keep everyone posted!!

terrible 21 months...???

Well we left Anna with Grandma and Grandpa Creps over Memorial Weekend while we went to Moab and yes she loves them and they love you but she came back to us a little crazy!! She has down nothing but whine and scream and has started swatting at us.. and this is a big no in our house so lets just say Anna has been in time out and had her bum paddle several times this week! Also on a side note My body has been pretty messed with no explanation so I have been in and out of the doctors all week doing blood tests and ultra sounds and talking to several doctors and no one has any idea what is going on with me or how to really fix it so it has been an emotional struggle as well as physical. to try and sum up what has been going on I have been sick to the wahzoo as well as intense pain in my back and stomach head aches like crazy and exhausted like you wouldn't believe (i have been falling asleep everynight at 9:00) and very uncomfortable sleep to where i maybe have slept 4 hours every night and thats it!! So as you can tell me not doing so hot and Anna going crazy all week has caused more anxiety and stress in life, but hopefully we can get things back to normal and just move on with life!!

But anyways last Saturday we spent all day at Seven Peaks (cause we have the pass of all passes) we also met up with Kee and hung out with her and Anna loved Seven Peaks she didn't want to get out of the water ever and it was so cute!! We got into the Wave pool at one point and went out into the waves and it actually ended up rocking Anna to sleep it was so funny so thats when we knew it was time to go so we wrapped Miss Anna up in her towel and she knocked out!

After Seven Peaks we had Kar and Nate come over and we made tin foil dinners (since it was to crazy to have them at moab) and they were amazing I forgot how much I loved tin foil dinners and its so nice that we have a little fire pit at our house!

Then Sunday came around and they are really hard at our house cause Anna doesn't nap usually so this Sunday was even worse cause you mix Crazy screaming baby with no nap means Extreme Crazy baby she was literally walking around the house just Screaming for no reason and wouldn't listen and wouldn't sleep it was a nightmare but lets just say she went to bed at 8:00 and woke up at 10:30 (that was the only nice part)

Oh, also I had my 2nd and 3rd interviews at Motherhood Maternity for a Part time Supervisor postion which I really think I will get they sounded pretty confident but Im just waiting for the call to actually get it (but the manager is on Vacation this week so its driving me a little crazy and adding to the stress and anxiety) So hopefully I will get it for sure cause its part time and like 2 minuets away from house

So that pretty much sums up our last week doctors, crazy baby, job interviews and seven peaks!!

So if anyone wants a Crazy Baby for a day please call Im very willing to give her up!! :D



peace out!!

blogging

Well I haven't blogged in a very long time but trust me i have been reading everyone elses blogs.. its one of my favorite things to do is read everyones blog!!
So May seemed to fly by like crazy and the sad part is, is we didn't really do anything. We went to a couple weddings and homecomings and then waited for memorial day to go to Moab with some friends, but May just flew on by!!
So our Moab trip was really fun we went down with a couple friends and just hiked our butts off and then at night it would get super windy and sand would blow everywhere!! Riley and I's first night we were by ourselves and things were nice and calm and we just slept it was wonderful then the next day it was super windy and blew over and ruined our friends tent and and blew away our gazibo that we just bought (luckily it was only $20) and then that night our tent would just fill with sand every time the wind blew so we got up and slept in the car with our friends.  So we got up the next morning and hiked and then everyone was so tired and hot but we couldn't go back to our camping spot cause it was so windy so we went to wendys and played phase 10 for like 3 hours and then we decided it wasn't worth it to spend the night again so we just went home leaving at 8:00 p.m. making it to Nephi at like 11:30 p.m. it was a rough drive cause Riley and I were super tired!! But it was a super fun trip that we all really enjoyed!!
so nothing else has really been happening, I mean in June it will be Fathers Day and our 2nd Anniversary and then July will be Riley's 21st birthday then August Riley starts school then September Anna turns 2 and we go to Disneyland then October I turn 21... and thats about it for the next couple of months!!